Always Watching, Always Aware

Earlier today, a friend remarked: "I don't understand. The way you are reacting, it's almost like you knew someone in…

Posted by Alex Darke on Monday, June 13, 2016

This is so spot on…it’s my thoughts put in to words.

I remember my first PDA moment with Lah, it’s etched in my mind…for all the wrong reasons.

Something so simple, something I had watched other couples do all night long. Lah is not big on PDA so I really never thought about it because I didn’t think it would be a thing for us.

But there we were, walking through the food rows at the Oklahoma State Fair. She was just a bit behind me, laughing at me being mesmerized by all the food choices when she did it. She reached up and rubbed my back and then grabbed my hand as she laughed. I felt like a lightening bolt had shot through me and quickly looked around to see who was watching, who had seen it…waiting for some reaction from someone. I started to sweat and nearly pulled my hand away before I snapped to and let the moment take over. I don’t think she ever realized my initial reaction as we walked on, her laughing and asking me to pick something to eat and me finally with a goofy smile on my face, enjoying that moment.

Since that night we have had a few other, very simple, PDA moments and the reaction has lessened, but I still look to see who sees us. It will never change.

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